Ten years from now a thousand fold

Dear Matt,

You said it best when you said “sometimes it feels like 20 years, sometimes it feels like yesterday”

We have been through a lot these past 8 years. The good, the bad, the ugly, the scary, the beautiful. Through it all you have been there.

We have somehow managed to bring 3 beautiful girls into this world. We have bought 2 houses and made them homes. We have traveled and made memories to last a lifetime.

We have fought, oh how we have fought. We have cried, but in end we have found love.

I got asked a question 8 years ago and I answered. I Do with no hesitations.

If you would have asked me 7 years ago if we would make it, I would have answered yes a thousand times. We were celebrating a year of marriage and the upcoming arrival of our first daughter.

If you would have asked me 6 years ago if we would make it, I would have answered yes. We watched our baby grow and after all we were young and had the world at our feet.

If you would have asked me 5 years ago. I would tell you yes, but I was stubborn and unwilling to admit, maybe I was wrong. Year 3 was hard, our baby was sick, I was in school, you traveled a lot for work. Real life started to settle and it wasn’t always pretty.

If you would have asked me 4 years ago if we were going to make it. I would have said maybe, or I would have yes but inside doubting every assurance I told. 2014, I graduated. Our daughter got a clean bill of health. 2014 also brought heartache and our marriage was on the rocks at best. 2014 left us with scars. We survived. We learned grace and mercy. We learned that love is choice that is made daily.

3 years ago I would have told you that we were going to mak e it, and I was finally starting to believe it again. Life was still but we had entered 2015 as new people, scarred by the previous year but ready to heal.

2 years ago, if you would have asked I would have said yes without a doubt. We welcomed our second daughter into the world. We were starting a new chapter and life seemed grand. Nothing could have stopped us.

If you would have asked me one year ago, I would have said if this didn’t break us of course we would make it. 2017 was charged full of emotions, we watched our oldest struggle to survive. I don’t think I have ever leaned on you as much as I did that year. So much of that year was consumed by that one single event, but I am so thankful it was you by my side.

If you ask me today, I will say yes with just as much confidence as I did that day in 2010. 2018, year 8 has brought us our third baby girl. It has brought us a true understanding of ourselves, and each other. Yes, there are still fights, and sometimes the old wounds still creep in, but grace and mercy are a common ground and love abounds.

8 years have come and gone, and I am so thankful you have been by my side for everyone. Through the good, the bad and the ugly you stood by.

Its been 2,920 days since we said I do. We have fought for every single day all 4,204,800 minutes. I love you more today than I did then. We have learned so much the past 8 years, we have learned the importance of grace and mercy. We have learned how to choose each other every day. Truly God gave me you, for the the ups, the downs and everything in between.

You have been my rock, standing by my side. You have brought so much joy and laughter to my life. I truly can’t imagine have anyone else by my side.

“Yes I’ll have and yes I’ll hold ten years from now a thousand fold…”



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