2018 a year of JOY.

At the beginning of the year I chose a word. I thought and prayer for one word. Instead of resolutions –that wouldn’t last longer than a month, maybe 2– I chose a word. One word. One word to define a new year. One word to strive for. Joy Coming into 2018 I was ending one […]

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Life in the doldrums…

Doldrums… it sounds depressing and desolate. Webster’s define doldrums as “ a state or period of inactivity, stagnation, or slump”, “a spell of listlessness or despondency”. There is a spot in the Atlantic Ocean that sailors refer to as the doldrums. Where there is light, unpredictable wind and storms. If you’re a sailor (which I’m not) you know […]

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Lessons learned in the garden.

The garden, it’s one of my favorite places to be. It is serene. There is a great peace that comes with watching life happen. Watching nature unfold stops time. I spent a lot of my childhood in a garden. I learned how to make straight lines, dig holes, plants seeds, care for those same seeds […]

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Lessons learned around the table

Six years. It has been six years since I sat at that old table. You know the one. It sits with placements under a simple tablecloth. In the middle there sits notebooks and pens in the napkin holder, beside that a bottle of banana peppers and a salt shaker. A tea cup of water sits […]

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When life doesn’t go as planned…

Sometimes life doesn’t go as planned. It’s a fact. In fact in my life rarely do things go as planned. Maybe it’s because we have this vision in our minds of what our life ‘should’ look like. If your like me that vision looks like my Pinterest board, or someone else’s highlight reel. But why, […]

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The secrets behind the highlight reel.

I often get told “I don’t know how you do it” or “you are so strong”. The reality is I don’t have a choice. I have to be strong. It’s not an option for me to break down because it takes too long to put myself back together. Trust me I know. Truth is you […]

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I am loved. She is loved.

A few days ago I was sitting holding my sleeping 6 year old. Sounds sweet right? Wrong. You see she had had 3 seizures in 3 days. Friday night. Saturday night. And Sunday morning. This was Sunday morning. She was too tired to go to her Sunday school class so she was hanging out with […]

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The desserts can be found on the washer and dryer

Generations. They tell a story. A story that has been passed down changing slightly with time but still ringing with the truth of the past. July 2, 1992. I was born. The first in my generation on my mom’s side. The fifth living generation. I have been blessed. In my life I have known: 1 […]

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Embracing the mess

To the mom who is sitting in the middle of the mess. It’s 8pm and your staring at your house convinced you did nothing today or maybe you feel like you did everything and have nothing to show for it. There are solo cups strewn across the room from building countless cup towers. The 50 […]

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Memory Loss, Permanent Deficits, Quality of Life, Mortality Rates and where God fits into it all.

Memory loss, language/communication problems, permanent deficits, quality of life, mortality rates.  Where is God when I am discussing these topics with my child’s doctor? I’ll be honest sometimes God seems very distant, like he is just sitting back watching my daughter struggle through life without lifting a finger to help. Sometimes I wonder why Olivia? […]

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