What do I do when God disappoints…

This week has been a dream. Olivia has been off one of her medications. It has been pure bliss as we have watched her come back to life. Without that specific medication in her system she has flourished. Where once it was like waking the dead, now she is up before the sun. Where once […]

111 days and a secret so simple.

111 days. One hundred eleven days. What do you do when life as you know it is numbered. When there is a real timeline, and it ends on a specific date. What do you do with this one life? This one chance? Do you keep doing what your doing? Do you do a 180 and […]

Word of the year 2019: Surrender

This year choosing a word was easy. In fact I didn’t even choose it. It jumped at me with a bright neon flashing light doing a dance. Surrender. Surrender. Surrender. Surrender is defined as: “abandon oneself entirely to (a powerful emotion or influence); give in to.” Did you hear that. Abandon oneself entirely. Entirely. Not […]

Ten years from now a thousand fold

Dear Matt, You said it best when you said “sometimes it feels like 20 years, sometimes it feels like yesterday” We have been through a lot these past 8 years. The good, the bad, the ugly, the scary, the beautiful. Through it all you have been there. We have somehow managed to bring 3 beautiful […]

2018 a year of JOY.

At the beginning of the year I chose a word. I thought and prayer for one word. Instead of resolutions –that wouldn’t last longer than a month, maybe 2– I chose a word. One word. One word to define a new year. One word to strive for. Joy Coming into 2018 I was ending one […]

Life in the doldrums…

Doldrums… it sounds depressing and desolate. Webster’s define doldrums as “ a state or period of inactivity, stagnation, or slump”, “a spell of listlessness or despondency”. There is a spot in the Atlantic Ocean that sailors refer to as the doldrums. Where there is light, unpredictable wind and storms. If you’re a sailor (which I’m not) you know […]

Lessons learned in the garden.

The garden, it’s one of my favorite places to be. It is serene. There is a great peace that comes with watching life happen. Watching nature unfold stops time. I spent a lot of my childhood in a garden. I learned how to make straight lines, dig holes, plants seeds, care for those same seeds […]

Lessons learned around the table

Six years. It has been six years since I sat at that old table. You know the one. It sits with placements under a simple tablecloth. In the middle there sits notebooks and pens in the napkin holder, beside that a bottle of banana peppers and a salt shaker. A tea cup of water sits […]

When life doesn’t go as planned…

Sometimes life doesn’t go as planned. It’s a fact. In fact in my life rarely do things go as planned. Maybe it’s because we have this vision in our minds of what our life ‘should’ look like. If your like me that vision looks like my Pinterest board, or someone else’s highlight reel. But why, […]

The secrets behind the highlight reel.

I often get told “I don’t know how you do it” or “you are so strong”. The reality is I don’t have a choice. I have to be strong. It’s not an option for me to break down because it takes too long to put myself back together. Trust me I know. Truth is you […]