Grieving… the child you dreamed about and loving the child you have.

Momma, this one is for you. The mom who is deep in the trenches of life you didn’t imagine. A diagnosis you never saw coming. A life that took you by surprise. Grief. They say it comes in waves. How funny. Funny that waves something we associate with the ocean –something peaceful– can also be […]

The Art of Surrender

Surrender. That was my word for 2019. I talked a few blogs ago about how to surrender means to abandon oneself entirely. Another definition can be “to give up or hand over“. I should have known then, that this was going to be a year for the books. I am still very much learning how […]

What do I do when God disappoints…

This week has been a dream. Olivia has been off one of her medications. It has been pure bliss as we have watched her come back to life. Without that specific medication in her system she has flourished. Where once it was like waking the dead, now she is up before the sun. Where once […]

111 days and a secret so simple.

111 days. One hundred eleven days. What do you do when life as you know it is numbered. When there is a real timeline, and it ends on a specific date. What do you do with this one life? This one chance? Do you keep doing what your doing? Do you do a 180 and […]

Word of the year 2019: Surrender

This year choosing a word was easy. In fact I didn’t even choose it. It jumped at me with a bright neon flashing light doing a dance. Surrender. Surrender. Surrender. Surrender is defined as: “abandon oneself entirely to (a powerful emotion or influence); give in to.” Did you hear that. Abandon oneself entirely. Entirely. Not […]

Ten years from now a thousand fold

Dear Matt, You said it best when you said “sometimes it feels like 20 years, sometimes it feels like yesterday” We have been through a lot these past 8 years. The good, the bad, the ugly, the scary, the beautiful. Through it all you have been there. We have somehow managed to bring 3 beautiful […]

2018 a year of JOY.

At the beginning of the year I chose a word. I thought and prayer for one word. Instead of resolutions –that wouldn’t last longer than a month, maybe 2– I chose a word. One word. One word to define a new year. One word to strive for. Joy Coming into 2018 I was ending one […]

Life in the doldrums…

Doldrums… it sounds depressing and desolate. Webster’s define doldrums as “ a state or period of inactivity, stagnation, or slump”, “a spell of listlessness or despondency”. There is a spot in the Atlantic Ocean that sailors refer to as the doldrums. Where there is light, unpredictable wind and storms. If you’re a sailor (which I’m not) you know […]

Lessons learned in the garden.

The garden, it’s one of my favorite places to be. It is serene. There is a great peace that comes with watching life happen. Watching nature unfold stops time. I spent a lot of my childhood in a garden. I learned how to make straight lines, dig holes, plants seeds, care for those same seeds […]

Lessons learned around the table

Six years. It has been six years since I sat at that old table. You know the one. It sits with placements under a simple tablecloth. In the middle there sits notebooks and pens in the napkin holder, beside that a bottle of banana peppers and a salt shaker. A tea cup of water sits […]